There are few things more peaceful than to simply know what is expected. For the past three months I’ve been in this in-between stage of deciding what to do next year. Finally, God has given me a peace about a decision (which is to stay at my current job and tackle the long commute), and it has been delightful to feel this huge burden lifted. Naturally, I wondered: Why wouldn’t God just tell me this at the beginning? Why do I have to go through all the agony and angst of not knowing the future? I even took two days off work to go to interviews! What good did this do?
Since I know that God pre-ordains everything that has happened or ever will happen, I know that he did not send me on a futile job search. Although I may not know His ultimate reason until I am in Glory, I have found some applications in the here and now:
- Allowing me to “test the waters” at another place of employment gave me more appreciation for my current place of employment.
- I’m not trying to be mystic or overspiritualize, but God desires for us to listen to the Holy Spirit for guidance. When I walked out of the interview for my current job, I hopped in the car and told my husband, “That’s where I want to be. It’s right.” I just knew. I didn’t look for sudden illumination followed by an angelic chorus (although it would be nice!), but I just had a sense that this is where I needed to be.
- I now have updated resumes, cover letters, and recommendation letters. Keeping these things up-to-date is a hassle, but looking for jobs makes me keep realize the importance of keeping myself fresh and marketable–something that will serve both me and my students well.